|This is my closeure
||[Aug. 16th, 2006|02:48 pm]
Dear Layton, |
When we met i instantly really liked you. We clicked so incredibly well; it was like you were me only a different person. when we decided to let ourselves care more for one another, to love eachother i always told myself i'd never-ever let you break my heart. i never admited to myself that i loved you more then i love most of my friends, i tried not to let you become a part of me. we spent every day-so much time together. i thought i really knew you. god damnit layton why? i don't know what i did, but everyonce in a while you always find a flaw with me. we'd get off the phone and i'd cry myself to sleep. now with out you for this time i've realized i loved and cared about you so much more. haven't you realized that i loved you not because of where you've been, what you've done, or who you think you are? i loved you for who i saw in you. i'm so fucking tired of crying because i never told you. i'm so tired of crying. so i put this here, where i'm sure you'll never look but one can only hope that you might rememeber this and want to see how i am. i wish there was a way for me to do that. to know you are ok, i want to know if you've cried over leaving me in all this wonder.
now i can move on. i can let myself stop hopeing. remember the time i was messing around on senda and i switched her secondary from her shield to her old green orb? you thought it was something else and got so pissy with me... for no reason. how most of the time it was for no reason? you never could trust me. i've got to move on. i'm out of tears. you'll always stay right here in my heart; if you ever...
love, the very confused